How do I express
Something not expressible?
I’m so tired of holding it in
But so afraid of what happens
When it comes out
To be believed
To not be believed
Which is more tiring?
Which is more frightening?
41 years
5 fully awake
Worn out to the bone
Just starting to live
If two rabbis don’t agree
On the meaning of a verse in the Bible
How can I hope for
Clarity to persist any longer than a lightning flash?
Well, says I, 5 years ago
I wouldn’t even have conceived of the
Possibility of the lightning flash
So you can’t blame me now
If I hope for
The full light
That’s stronger than the sun
